Writings Straight from the Pen

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Straight from the Pen

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Complimentary blog posted with permission from Murder Slim Press and author, Jeffrey Patrick Frye.

Jeffrey Patrick Frye, U.S.P. Coleman, Coleman, Florida

JEFFREY PATRICK FRYE on 10/23/2019 10:50:46 AM wrote

I woke up this morning like I do every other morning here in Hades. I kissed the Black plastic Rosary that was intertwined through my fingers and dropped it down into the corner of my bunk. I sleep with it in my hand because even though I know that St. Michael has my back, this place is a hundred or so acres of corralled evil and it never hurts to have extra spiritual protection. Kinda like car insurance when you tack on collision, knowing that you already have liability. So many murders and suicides have happened here over the last 20 years that there’s bound to be several disgruntled souls who are still wandering around, pissed off, and that haven’t gone to the light with Carol Anne.

After tucking away my Rosary, before getting out of the bed, I say a quick prayer that went something like this:

“Lord, please watch out for my family and friends today and give me the strength and wisdom not to choke one of these cock-holsters to death around here. Amen.”

Having gotten that outta the way, I hopped out of my bottom bunk, grab my Blue toothbrush, and run a thick red bead of Close Up down the bristles and head to the sink to brush my giblets. On my way though I pause and stop to look at my new cellie. His name is Joshua Vallum and he’s doing 49 years for a federal hate crime, that only turned into such after Caitlyn Jenner mentioned it on TV at The Espy Awards. Josh stabbed and beat to death (w/ a hammer) a 17-year-old transgender named Mercedes Williamson when he discovered that his Venus had a penis. At least that’s his story, which he’s entitled to, but I suspect that his brothers in the gang he was in discovered that he was dating a transgender and he killed Mercedes to stay in their good graces. But whatever the story is, for Mercedes, dead is dead, and for Josh, Life is Life…literally. After he finishes up his 49 years in the feds he has to go do his no-parole Life sentence in the state of Mississippi.

So, yes, he’s a bonafide killer (and also an Army veteran with a Bronze Star for valor and a Purple Heart from Afghanistan), but, to me, he’s just my cellie. My cellie who is presently laying on his back snoring with his mouth wide open. I contemplate dropping a piece of plastic over his nose and mouth (I call it Convict Waterboarding), but Josh has PTSD and night tremors so I decide to give him a break. For now.

After brushing my teeth, I wash my face then put lotion on all over it and my arms in an attempt not to look 10 years older than God. I look into the mirror and discover that it hasn’t worked. Fuck. As I am contemplating my potential future unsexiness I hear a knock at my cell door and look over to see that it’s a guy I call Bocephus. His name is Bobby Rodgers and he’s doing a dime for blowing up an abortion clinic. He has long greasy brown hair, a reconstructed face, and he’s also missing his two front teeth. Despite this though, he still likes to smile and rep them like they’re a full set. He’s the most unlikely right-to-lifer that I’ve ever met but at least he’s not a flaming lefty, so I nod my head to him letting him know that it’s okay to come into my house. Before he even opens his criminal pie-hole, I can tell that he’s in a tizzy about something.

He rushes in, and says, “Goll damn. My buddy’s all messed up and needs your help.” I reply, “What’s his issue Bocephus, and what does it have to do with me?” Quickly, he spews, “He’s trying to do his wake-up shot and can’t find a vein!” When he says this I initially duck, just in case his bottom partial flies out. I straighten up, and say, “I’m not a doctor Hank Jr. so why the hell are you coming to me?” He gives me a look that seems to impart, How dumb can you be? and he says, “Well, daggum it, you seem to know a little something about everything and you’re the smartest dummy around here!” Then to prove his point, he adds, “And you used to be a dope fiend!!!” I suspect that somewhere in that sentence is a compliment, so I shake my head, and tell him, “Go get him.”

He sure didn’t have to go far. He stuck his head out of the cell door and tells the guy (who’s standing out on the tier), “C’mon! He said he’d do it! C’mon now!!!” The guy that he brings in is a little El Salvadorian who’s so small that I figure they would only let him into MS-12. He will remain nameless, but he’s short and skinny. His eyes are spaced way too far apart and it has the effect of making him look like a flounder. I imagine that his Madre drank cervezas at the cantina every night (and day) while she was pregnant with him. I don’t know how to say “Sling Blade” in Spanish, so I say, “Que pasa, Flacco?” He doesn’t speak English, and he holds up his binki and I see that it’s filled with liquid and blood. A binki is a prison syringe that’s about 3 inches long and is made from melting the needle from an insulin syringe into the end of a clear Bic pen. A rubber piece is attached to the back of it to create suction.

I maneuver Felipe The Flounder over to the window to get some light, and start prodding the veins in his skinny neck with my thick fingers. Then I shake down the binki and squeeze a single drop out to make sure that it isn’t clogged. I reach into my locker and grab a pencil and tell this little criminal crustacean, “I’m sure that this won’t be foreign to you, but I want you to put this pencil between your lips and blow hard.” Bochepus is sitting on the bed and he giggles, but Felipe doesn’t move a muscle (or a gill). So I put the pencil between my lips and blow, demonstrating what I want him to do. He does it (without even wiping off the pencil), and the veins in his neck pop right up. I choose the biggest one and jab the needle straight into his jugular, see blood roll back into the barrel and register, then I empty its contents into the vein. Although I’m not sure (and don’t really care), I’m guessing that the binki contained Suboxone, since this drug and K2 (rat poison disguised as synthetic marijuana) are an epidemic in the BOP with about 75% of the inmate population being strung-out on one or the other.

Felipe The Flounder’s eyes start to droop and I tell him, “Swim away little fishy. Adele!” He takes off, and I turn to Bocephus, and say, “My codependent services aren’t free..” I feel sure that he has absolutely no idea what codependent means (or who Melody Beattie is), but he picks up on my tone, and says, “Whaddya want me to getcha?” I pretend to consider his question, then say, “I want you to come over here and bend over this sink and pull down your pants.” So what does Hank Jr. do? He gets up and starts walking towards the sink!!! Bending over the sink must be a Family Tradition where he’s from. I yell, “Hey! I was just kidding!” Then I had him my clear plastic coffee cup and tell him to go get me a cup and we’ll call it even. I also tell him, “Look. Please don’t bring anybody here like that again. And stop overestimating my intelligence and phlebotomy skills.” He replies, “I ain’t done none of that. I just figgered you’d know how to shoot dope and find a vein.” He finally spins off and I turn around to see my cellie still laying on his back snoring, and sounding like Bike Week at Sturgis.

The insane clown posse hasn’t been gone two minutes and as I’m scrubbing my hands, my boy Madman (Michael Brabham from Dallas, Texas doing 30 years for conspiracy to distribute a shit-ton of meth while possessing a gun) comes into my house without knocking and goes into my locker, grabs a muffin, and sits down on my bunk and proceeds to eat it. Madman recently turned me onto an author named Clayton Lindemuth. He handed me a book called MY BROTHER’S DESTROYER one day, that is the first in a series of a character named Baer Creighton. I couldn’t put the book down and neither could about 10 other guys in my cellblock who read it. Clay can write. I recommend picking up a copy of the book on Amazon or looking up Clay’s group on Facebook RED MEAT LIT STREET TEAM. You can also contact him via email at claylindemuth@gmail.com, which is something I recently did. Surprisingly, Clay accepted my email request and we started chopping it up. Clay writes grit-lit just like I do. After a few emails, Clay asked me if he could send me books and I explained that they had to come from a publisher. So what did he do? He Paid retail for his own books and sent me the whole Baer Creighton series and a couple other of his books off of Amazon! Unfuckingbelievable, huh? Clay’s writing style is like my fellow authors at Murder Slim Press. His writing keeps you wanting to be like Bob Seger and keep turning the page.

Speaking of turning the page, I have a new book coming out next month for Murder Slim called STORIES FROM THE LIFE. It’s a compilation of 11 of previously unpublished stories. Shakespearianesque tragi-comedies, penned from various federal prison cells over the last decade, all designed and beautifully laid out by Steve Hussy at MSP, a great writer in his own right. So buy several. They make great Christmas gifts. Pick one up for a family member, your significant other, or your parole officer. It might be my last book for Murder Slim Press.

And, above all, keep clicking onto The Bank Robber’s Blog.

Jeffrey P. Frye
Bank Robber’s Blog

About Breaking Free Poets by Michael Newman

Breaking Free Poets is a group of writers, thinkers, and activists which formed at FCI Petersburg, VA in 2017. We started out with the simple idea to bring people together to produce a poetry slam in the prison chapel. The turnout and response was so powerful and far beyond expectations that we couldn’t stop with just one performance! From there, we went on to produce more shows and eventually created a poetry blog with help from outside supporters. Since then we’ve connected with some amazing organizations like FairShake, Free Minds D.C., and others.

Our weekly meetings have been an outlet for us to process, write, and talk about issues within the prison and in the outside world. This breaks the cycle of negative interaction that can take over in a prison environment, and provides a sanctuary. The group also offers us a small slice of autonomy and individual expression in an environment where these are suppressed in so many ways.

As members of our original group are released, they hope to continue the work we started here. We know that people without a voice disappear from a democracy. We want to make our voices heard on the inside and outside of prison to advocate for the freedom of our imprisoned brothers and sisters everywhere. We currently making partnerships to produce media content, live performances, and speak publicly to tell our stories and advocate for people and communities negatively impacted by the criminal justice system.

Mike Newman

Founder, Breaking Free Poets & Breaking Free Media
connect with us:
On Instagram: @breakingfreepoets



Love Makes the World Smile

LOVE by Johnnie Burns

I remember, back when I was a young impetuous adolescent. Me and my girlfriend were arguing at each other. Then I angrily shoved her by her face. I had instantly regretted putting my hands on her and thought how foul that would be if the females of my family would have seen that, and on top of that her response to my action was so profound and disturbing. I would never forget it! She said, “Nigga, don’t put your hands on me, you don’t love me!”

Now that I am grown, I see other grown men and women alike with that same mind frame, as that impetuous adolescent had all those years ago. Grown people being controlled by their emotions. As opposed to acting like they are grown and controlling their emotions! Yeah, I know that is a radical idea. But, bear with me? As kids and small children, we lack the mental tools of working out problems, and/or being self-reliant. So, they cry and throw tantrums! Any way to act out, because they need the love and guidance of adults (grown people)! And I find it very disturbing to see grown people acting as if they are kids and small children.

So, ‘we’ as grown people are unable to understand the simplest and purest aspects of love. So, we distort it, control, and abuse it. We become dictators and place every imaginable condition on love, until it is unrecognizable. No wonder we believe that there’s a thin line between love and hate. Please think about it for a moment. If love was supposed to hurt, trap you emotionally, mentally scar you, or to take advantage of you then why would you need enemies?

On the contrary, love is supposed to make you fly! It releases your greatest potentials. There’s not a thin line between love and hate, there is an ocean between the two. You cannot stifle love by placing conditions on it! Because love is supposed to breathe and flourish. Love is simply this, in its truest form, giving and asking for nothing in return. So, when our hearts and minds allow this then we have truly found that ever-elusive LOVE! Then and only then would we stop acting as kids Рallowing our emotions to control us Рby throwing violent tantrums in a fit of jealous rage! All in an effort of controlling our significant other. As if we had the authority to control and bully others.

Yes, we must grow up and release that impetuous adolescent that’s within. Then we can start to release the true power of love.

Peace, love, and blessings.